Matt Kaul

'What man needs is silence & warmth; what he is given is an icy pandemonium.' ~Simone Weil

    Cleaned like a zillion ants out of our mailbox today. (!?!)

    Now spending the afternoon creeped out by feeling like I’ve got tiny ants crawling all over me. 🐜🏡

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    Happy Feast of the Epiphany!

    Our Rosca de Reyes turned out exceptionally well 😋🏡

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    Highland Advent vibes this morning. 🏡

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    Perfect night for a fire. A zillion stars in the cloudless sky. Some Wolfgang Muthspiel on the speaker. Life is good. 🏡

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    A beautiful evening by the lake. I read; the kids built driftwood boats. 🏡

    One should act like a man of thought, and think like a man of action.

    ~Henri Bergson, quoted by Iain McGilchrist in The Matter with Things 📚🏡

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    A beautiful summer morning 🏡

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    A fresh layer of snow overnight + fire-red sunrise.

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    This sunrise this morning… unreal. 💥 🏡

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    Another beautiful sunrise on Rish Lake🏡

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    Weekend project: cleaning out the garage, the last holdout/dumping-ground from our Oct move. Wish I had a “before” shot—believe it or not, this is a major improvement! 🏡

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    A beautiful sunrise over Rush Lake this morning. #nofilter 🏡

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    It was a beautiful foggy morning at Whispering Woods 🏡

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    A beautiful day to prep the garden for winter. 🏡

    the family cleaning out the garden
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    Moving day. Our first day of snow for the season, too. 🏡

    The Big Move 🏡

    Our family is getting ready to move from the Minneapolis – St. Paul metro area up to central Minnesota. We’ll be closer to my wife’s parents and my own, and right in the heart of beautiful MN lake country. It’s something we’ve wanted to do as a family for a number of years. Since we’re homeschooling the kids this year anyway, now seemed like a good year to make a move like this.

    Of course, we’re all anxious about the move, particularly about leaving our siblings and their families behind, about leaving our dear friends at church behind, about leaving our beloved current home behind.

    Yesterday, one of my five-year-old sons was having a rough day: arguing about everything, picking fights with his siblings, his mother, & me—all very unusual behavior for him. We found him in his bedroom, pouting. (He wasn’t hard to find, since he slam the door as hard as he could on his way in.) We said to him, “Even though we knew you’re excited to live in our new house, are you feeling kinda angry that we’re moving?”

    He looked shocked for a second, wide-eyed, then started sobbing. “Yes! Why do we have to move to a stupid new house? I just want to keep our house!”

    The one time we moved when I was an older kid, my parents moved the week I was at summer camp. I now understand why: the stress of moving is everywhere in our family; the kids don’t have a sufficiently established sense of time to know when it will all be over. (Answer: a week and a half.) To them, this move just feels like a gigantic, vague monster that will never leave them alone.

    It might be good to re-watch Inside Out sometime this week. And, of course, to just keep on letting the kids talk about what they’re feeling. Turns out it’s not far from what we’re feeling: excitement mixed with a vague sense of unease, fear of all the uncertainty, and a desire to just have it all be done.