Matt Kaul

'What man needs is silence & warmth; what he is given is an icy pandemonium.' ~Simone Weil

    Exodus 90: readings ✝️

    Try to read each week’s Scripture once each day.

    Week 1: 8-14 Jan

    • Reading: Exodus 1-4

    Week 2: 15-21 Jan

    • Reading: Exodus 5-8

    Week 3: 22-28 Jan

    • Reading: Exodus 9-12

    Week 4: 29 Jan – 4 Feb

    • Reading: Exodus 13-16

    Week 5: 5-11 Feb

    • Reading: Galatians

    Week 6: 12-18 Feb

    • Reading: Ephesians

    Week 7: 19-25 Feb

    • Reading: Philippians

    Week 8: 26 Feb – 3 Mar

    • Reading: Colossians

    Week 9: 4-10 Mar

    • Reading: Mark 1-4

    Week 10: 11-17 Mar

    • Reading: Mark 5-8

    Week 11: 18-24 Mar

    • Reading: Mark 9-12

    Week 12: 25-30 Mar

    • Reading: Mark 13-15

    Week Easter Sunday

    • Reading: Mark 16

    Exodus 90: Mental prep ✝️

    I have a very general, easy schedule of readings for the next 12 weeks. A few chapters each week—it won’t be a problem with all the new non-phone time you’ll have each day 🫠

    Having done this twice before, I think the most helpful thing for you to prepare is to get a plan for areas where you expect to struggle:

    • If it’s your phone/screen time: where can you put your phone at home & work so it’s out of sight, out of mind?
    • If it’s regular exercise: where and when will you work out? What will you do for workouts?
    • If it’s prayer: when can you consistently set aside half an hour of quiet in your day?
    • If it’s eating healthy & not snacking: what can you do when you feel the urge to snack or drink? I try to replace it with getting up for lemon water. Reminding myself that this only lasts 3 months, not forever, also helps.
    • If it’s the cold showers, just toughen up. Kidding! Do this by ending your showers with cold for gradually longer times: 10s, 30s, 1min, etc. This might sound like the worst part of the experience, but the guys I’ve done it with have stuck with this longer and more consistently after Ex90 than any of the other disciplines. It makes a huge difference in your mood & energy level.

    Exodus 90: spiritual discipline between New Year's & Easter ✝️

    Several times in the last five years, I’ve participated in Exodus 90, a 90-day program of spiritual disciplines and practices.

    This year, Exodus 90 starts right on January 1, and goes through Holy Saturday (March 30). I’m especially excited to participate this year.

    Although the Exodus 90 organization offers an app and a subscription service (who doesn’t, these days?), I’ve never paid for the service.

    You can get the full benefit of the program by simply recruiting a group of friends and following these practices together, checking in regularly (at least weekly) to discussion how it’s going. I’ve grouped the disciplines into general categories, though of course there aren’t neat divisions between them:

    Communal disciplines

    • Attend the weekly group meeting
    • Check in briefly but regularly with your group

    Spiritual disciplines

    • Read Scripture & offer up a holy hour of prayer daily (not necessarily a full hour—just a regular time of focused prayer)
    • Make a nightly Examen (a prayerful review of the day)

    Attentional disciplines

    • Abstain from unnecessary mobile device use
    • Abstain from unnecessary computer use
    • Abstain from video games
    • Abstain from TV and televised sports
    • Listen only to music that lifts the soul to God

    Physical disciplines

    • Get a full night’s sleep (at least seven hours is recommended)
    • Take short, cold showers
    • Practice regular, intense exercise
    • Fast on Wednesday and Friday (only eat one full meal, as well as two smaller meals that together are not equal to a full meal)
    • Abstain from meat on Wednesday and Friday

    Consumption disciplines

    • Abstain from non-essential purchases
    • Abstain from eating between meals
    • Abstain from soda and sweet drinks
    • Abstain from desserts and sweets
    • Abstain from alcohol
    ...

    The Temptation in the Wilderness, part 1 (Good Teacher #3) ✝️

    Original post here

    Then Jesus was led up by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil. And after fasting forty days and forty nights, he was hungry. And the tempter came and said to him, “If you are the Son of God, command these stones to become loaves of bread. But he answered, “It is written

    ‘Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.’”

    Then the devil took him to the holy city and set him on the pinnacle of the temple, and said to him, “If you are the Son of God, throw yourself down, for it is written,

    ‘He will command his angels concerning you,’

    and

    ‘On their hands they will bear you up, lest you strike your foot against a stone.’”

    Jesus said to him, “Again it is written, ‘You shall not put the Lord your God to the test.’” Again, the devil took him to a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their glory. And he said to him, “All these I will give you, if you will fall down and worship me.” Then Jesus said to him, “Be gone, Satan! For it is written,

    ‘You shall worship the Lord your God and him only shall you serve.”

    Last week’s post on the baptism of Jesus emphasized the new life that comes through humility. I’m going to spend a few weeks on the story above, because it brilliantly conveys the struggle we each face when trying to build that new life, to start on a new path.

    (Remember, the point of this newsletter isn’t to convince you that the devil exists, or even that the events depicted here in these stories actually happened. Rather, we’re just seeking the wisdom available to us in Jesus’ life and teaching.)

    How many times have you tried to change your life? How many times has your life actually, significantly changed? Are you still on that new path?

    I’ve tried many times. Some attempts have stuck, and my life’s better as a result. Other attempts I’d rather forget, even as I’m reminded regularly of these struggles. Each time, though, I find that my resolve is immediately confronted by the forces of fear and inertia. It’s why there are a zillion books on keeping your resolutions, how to make habits stick, take control of your life, beat your phone addiction, etc.

    Simply put, there’s no easy way to change. Even when I embrace the new life available to me, I can be certain that the temptation to stay the same will be profound. A new path is uncertain, risky.

    The story today depicts Jesus himself facing three temptations: turn stones into wine; fling himself to certain death and command angels to save him; bow down and worship the devil.

    In some ways, this first temptation is the easiest to understand. After all, Jesus had been fasting in the wilderness (some translations use the word “desert”) for 40 days. Why not just break the fast? What’s the point of being so hard on yourself?

    Well, as Jesus says later in this book, “The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.”

    Willing . . . to do what? Too weak . . . for what task? For the work of changing yourself, your life. We crave comfort. We’re all uncomfortable with the unfamiliar, even when we know it’s a better place to be. Our bodies insist that we don’t upset things too much.

    Jesus specifically sought out the temptation, and went to the wilderness—literally, the unknown and unfamiliar place—to find it. One simple truth here is that there’s no easy way to change your life, even when you have a vision of the new life that’s available. There will be temptation to go back to the familiar. To compromise, because what’s the point, really?

    Jesus’ example suggests that the way through is to embrace the temptation we know is coming. To seek it out, on our own terms—empowered by that vision of new life—so that we aren’t caught off guard when confronting it.

    • What temptations do you expect to encounter as you seek to change your life?
    • How will you resist them?
    ...

    Baptism & new life (Good Teacher #2) ✝️

    Then Jesus came from Galilee to the Jordan to John, to be baptized by him. John would have prevented him, saying “I need to be baptized by you, and do you come to me?” But Jesus answered him, “Let it be so now, for thus it is fitting for us to fulfill all righteousness.” Then he consented. And when Jesus was baptized, immediately he went up from the water, and behold, the heavens were opened to him, and he saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove and coming to rest on him; and behold, a voice from heaven said, “This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased.

    ~Matthew 3:13-17

    Jesus’ baptism displays a major theme of his life and teaching: the humble are lifted up, and the mighty and prideful are undermined. John believes he isn’t worthy to baptize Jesus; this is what makes him worthy. Jesus recognizes this and humbles himself to be baptized by John.

    His baptism is the start of Jesus’ work. Baptism—going under the water; coming up out of the water—symbolizes transformation: from death to life, from a life hidden in the depths to one public and open.

    After his baptism “the heavens were opened”: a new sort of life became possible. A new start is always available and open to me, too. But only when I humbly commit to being transformed. Only when I recognize the death in my life—my old way of living, my destructive patterns of behavior.

    It will come through people we might be tempted to overlook and ignore. But if we embrace the vision of that abundant life, and open ourselves to those around us, there is new, abundant life available.

    • What paths of death or destruction are you on? How is pride preventing you from a fresh start?
    • What people are you ignoring who might offer transformation?
    • How do you imagine a fresh, new, abundant life for yourself?